Pillow!!!!

Seem long for me to post new stuff..

Cause i m gonna close tis blog..i got another blog=)

Hehehehehehhehehe^^^

Lost..

Today i had a dream..
The dream seem so real to me..
It is counted as a nightmare..

All those stunning and shocking moment..
I feel as though i reali gone through..
But when i woke up..
The dreams shattered..

Now..'
I finally know how much i scare of this world..
Cruelty..
HIprocrite..
All those thing who endanger my happy life..
Is now approaching me..

I thought i wont be scared of them..
But instead..
I m still the coward..

eTErnity..

There is sumone..

U feel like..

Hating them 4 ever n ever..

Seriously..

I forgot TAT matter..

N i m starting afresh now..

I'm happy wif everything from now..

N i swear i will in the future..

Because i love all of u..<3

I decided to let tat burden down..

again 4ever n ever..

What is the point...

Right??

When u close ur mouth..

I cn clap loudly..

I wont want to curse u anything..

Reali..

Because tat wil onli make me feel worse..

God bless me..

Because HE always did..

=)

FLD FLD...

Fld..means..FEEL LIKE DYING..

and tat is the way i m feeling right now..

How cn it disappear..

I cnt wipe away the hurt..

The wound tat is still bleeding..

When i turn to sleep..

Or when i m free until i cn dream around..

I will remember tat moments..

Al those memories flash through my mind..

Wihout bothering..

My heart..=(

How cn i tel u..

Even i oso cnt understand myself right now..

I feel like life..is juz like tat..

Mans live to stab his heart..

So do gals..

N tat is me..

I hope i m nt borned..

Seriously..

I hope i m nt a human..

Maybe..

A leaf??

Tat cn wilt when my life is over..

N short..

So i wanna cherish it..thoroughly..

But i CNT..

and tat is the fate...

FLD FLD..!!!

My heart/..

My heart is made of nerves and muscless..

But after encounter so many stiff obstacless..

It becomes stone..

Tough n strong..

But seem like..

I m nt strong enough to take tis blow..

One after another..

Whether i cn take it??

It is still a guess and a mystery to me..=(

I wish i m juz tat innocence gal..

To everyone..

I wish i m a good gal...

A gold..a diamond..

Seem like..

I m onli a garbage..

rEADy to be abandoned..

How i wish i wil gt back my happiness..

Which seem impossible from now..

=(((

cHanGing...

eXam is OvER...tat are many things tat happened...=)
my LIFE is changing throughly...
my MIND is changing throughly...

i noe all these things i must undergo...really hard...but must jiayou!!
i dunnoe y i feel so lost...n sad...
but i noe tat god will lead me...til the bright side alwAYs n fOreVER..

i dunnoe m i good...m i happy...
I DUNNOE...I DUNNOE....

goD Bless me...=)

hATe...

I hate being CONTROLLED...
so stop telling me wad to do...
this is my life...
nt urs...
Hate...is sooo tiredsome....
i dun like it...
but i dun noe y i still ve tat feeling...
is u!!!
make my life so terrible...i hate!!!tt...
no choice

deBaTE....

I love debate....n my team mates....when i m really down, they are the one who gives me support n helps me throughly....i thank them...if it is not them...i may not be in this world again...

DEBATE ligthtens my life...DARK life....i will be in heaven watching u all now...if it is not THEM...thanks...the life without u all...will be really really lonely.....

tHanKS God....giving the best two presents in my life....i LOVE u all......Muaksss....haha....i will try my every best to win!!! GO ssi A team....i love u.....

I wanna thank a person too....who always stay by my side every single moment....thanks...without u...do u think i will still be here.....NO!!!

tHANKs...and SoRRy for every trouble i caused......

ThINGS i wiLL neveR EvER ForGet.....

BYE!!

The happiest thing tat happened in my life is i had the chance to play piano...for CHOIR...for MUSIC CLUB...this club is the club i liked the most...always and forever...

BUt...i had to quit it....despite all the obstacles i had to encounter....but honestly i REGRET....sorry...quiting it not means tat i cannot help this club or do anything for this club...i will still help it...whenever i am....maybe quiting it will be a help to me....

Sorry...mentor...really sorry...i know u put lots of hope on me...but i had disappointed u...CHOIR...actually i treated it as my whole life...but it disappeared now...but surely sorry i apologised to u...i like it really much...PIANO...is my most important part...sorry and thanks...

BYEEE........Thanks for all the chances u all have given to me...i m a garbage!! I let u all down....sorry.....

dAMN TEOee nA.......I HATE myself throughly...i cant even success in one thing....i really fld...

Maybe if this world...there is no TEO EE NA...it will be much more better right.........tt....

sorry...everything i did is a mistake...but i really....cannot figure out what is right or wrong...



SORRY.....And bYeeee...........................................................

Please leave me alone...

Pls...what exactly did happen...i dun know n i dun ve the slightly wish to know tat...
Y u two cnt sit properly n talk....u two are making me damn worry..but still i have to lend in a hand...pls...stop fighting against each other....peaceful makes everything fine....!!! Arh!!! pLS PlS...leave me ALONE......i wanna help but still cannot take it....

I always be there....but unless u two can talk nicely...without my help though...fld.....haiz....beg u...both are my besssttt XXX.....SOO pls for heaven sake...talk nicely.....n forgot bout wad had happened as tat is actually notHING....NOTHING!!!! tT....

PhotO...

* My cute pillow...like it!!! mUAKS....

* At my grandma's house...taken on the first day of new year...+valentine's day=) kaka...

* Taking photo at my house..??=)

Kacha!!!

Saw my photos...guys...sry long time din online edi...had a hectic time this few days...but now over edi!!! Yay....i m damn happy...over the moon now....exam over...MSSD coming...=) Like it....

Wow....now cn ve free time edi...

Guys...i m uploading some photos to let u al ve a great look!!! Comment if u like....tkstks...=) Love u all forever........

aSas...

WAD...I haven studied yet!!! Asas is tomorrow...but god...i haven studied and i noe nothing....how m i gonna survive...senior sure kills me...
Haiz...tt...nobody cn accompany tomorrow....liyun nt going!!! DEn me alone again...m i so pity??? Beginning worry...silly me....silly thing..sick of this!!...hope asas over quickly...
Hope i pass it....expecially my CHOKING...God remember...ambulance!!! Lol

AlOne..

AlOne...new year is fun but AloNe....haiz....no friends but gt family..no school but gt home...like me...alOne iN home sweet home...it is gd...but...no school make me feel aLonE....HAIZ...

I like school days although it is too iritating haha.....HOmework a lot...but i cn chit chat wif my friends...gossip is my favourite things!!!=) I'M loving it....somekind 'loving'....miss my friends...miss their sound...wad!!! still have so many days left to be back at school...haiz....

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SchOOl i m coming!!! haiz asas test oso suddenly popping put...god...exam is around the corner..still gt so many activities..my piano getting worse..being scolded by my mentor..haiz...my fault anyway...i m gonna be crazy...haiz...cn i go back to form 1...tt....so stress all the time...miss it...miss my old friends n my bro...haiz...my brother still angry wif me how??...tell me wad to do...wad to said so he wont angry wif me again..teach me...i plead u..wadever it takes...plss...make time go back...haiz....doraemon?? God?? Haiz..nth cn help me...trap in this world...but anticipating it will turn out better...hope..n hope...my prayer will be heard....i believe tat!!!

haiz...HAiz.....haizzzzz.....

My dreaming badminton bag...oh gosh...seem like i m keep dreaming...haiz....share it wif me....

Haiz...i should name myself 'dreaming gal' edi.....haiz....tt

nEw Year Is sooooooooo gd....

Hmm....i love new year..scream it out!!!!!tata.....

Wow....second day of new year!!!!

I love it....muaksss....

Angpao many many...

Money many many....$$$$$$

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tREAT u alll ba.....haha..anticipating for everyday of TigEr year.....woshwosh....haha....lucky year for me.....=).....deng deng deng....clothes oso super satisfying....haha....my godbro oso very very cute...next time i sure upload video of him...kaka...

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Happy ChInESE nEW YEAR...too....oo valentine day over edi haha....forget it...HMph....treat it as a day i lost my money!!!!

But today....haha....out of expection...$$$$$....=)))

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CyA.....

To aNn's bESSSSTTTT....FRIEND..=)

Haha....the person will surely noe i m referring to her....tata....

Tks for staying by my side all the critic moment...i wont forget...

I'm very depressed on the first day of school when i knew tat we r nt in the same class.....I noe our friendship will surely be affected....

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However, we still cn maintain like now is surely a surprise for me.....haha...but honestly i noe tat it has been affected even a little bit....sry friend....i m truly sry...but i promise i will improve it n regain our FriEndshiP like last time.....give me tat FaiTh....

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I sooooooo miss our girls talk....talk tis friday bah...we gt a whole and half day to gossip....=)))))...LOVe it..........

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Tks n sry my dear friend...i sincerely hope tat our friendship will last 4ever.....

i WONt ever let our friendship been affected again....=)

Dreaming piano...

This is the piano i love most....dreaming again....haiz...when cn i gt it....??? I wanna learn guitar too....!!!!!

So pretty....n grand....haiz...

Oh My GosH,....

bELIEVE iT....iT is really unbelievable....u should really feel my happiness from my deepest heart....arhh......

New year is fabulous..god....angpao coming straight towards my eyes...lalala..but tis is nt the main reason tat cause me so happy...haha....

Guess wWADDDDD....MY best friend is coming to my house...yepppeeee.....
==maybe u would feel like i'm an idiot or wad....haiz...but tat is surely a surprise for me...anticipating for tat day...very very much..

My gosh....everything goes well....2010 is my best year til now....next year is gonna be much much better...=).........

Gosh gosh....=)

To my mentor...

Tks 4 ur support....really...u r the one who build my confidence in music and art.....tks..really...
Tks for sharing ur SecRet WIF me...tat means u trust me...moreover u console me everytime i m sad n depressed...although sometimes u r the one who make me sad...
Sry bout friday things...i noe tat is my fault cause i din perform well...sorry ya...mentor...recently i keep regretting for nt apogized to u earlier..though i think u will forgive me right...
Since tat day or maybe this week onwards u becum a bit 'emo'...dun emo cheer up...gd luck for everything including ur relationship...XX is really gd...cherish XX...
HaPpY TigerrRRRRR Year,
Gd luCk IN eveRytHIng,
Dun Be EmO...N tOLERATe in everything...
i bELIEVed tat u cn dO it....k??

* tIGer means strong...so in ur fabulous music career do it likes a tiger....support u...jiayou..=)

To my Friends...and "bro"

U r the one who stay by my side when i m sad...tks thousands times and sorry millions.....i will accompany u more....=)

To my dearest bro...

I think some will noe who m i referring...i hope the person will see it personally...
haha...i m apologising to him...sry for nt accompany u for so long...let u feel like we really really far away....sry....haiz....
Ur class really better than me...glad u r in tat class...saw ur blog....nice!!! Cool.....when cn i be like u...so cool....haha...teach me next time...
Still remember when tat time i ask u to be my bro...u accept it without hesitating...did u regret for accepting such nt caring sister....i always wanna be a model sis...but i think i failed....sry...thousands times....hope u tell me next time if i din do my responsibility as a sis.....
Talking bout the person u hate....dun care bout wad he do...ignore him...tat will let u feel better...heed my advice this time....dun give up...everything will turn out better...have faith with urself....u r much more better than that guy....let us talk to him next time....haha.....anyway tks for being a caring n understanding bro for me.....=)Cnt say happy new year to u...cause haha...u r nt a chinese....i think u al noe who he is already....c ya...

Happy nEw YeAr

Hi...everyone..this is my first time writing blog stuff..wow..cool man...now only i noe tat there is something so fabulous...haha..it is really a perfect way to relieve stress n express al of ur feeling...lol...wait..sry sound like i'm promoting this blog...haha...tat is surely nt my main purpose..=)

Happy new year to everyone...times really flies...haiz...i really really miss my form1 class..it is indeed a happy memory for me but we must face the reality....right...i feel worse this year when one of my best friend went singapore already....haiz...now class is very very boring....but i always convinced tat tomorrow will be better...remember this word..it is really a gd motivation to encounter al of ur problems....so tired haiz..however feels gd being busy...cause i cnt stay unactive even 1 moment...haha...life will be full of colour when u are busy..

One more things i will like to say....is have faith with everyone beside u...especially ur friend...tat is something i wanna learn this year...cause i almost lost my faith to my best friend...but afterwards when u think bout it u will find it amusing...cause when u are depressed tat is ur best friend who is consoling u....noone else..right?? Sry to my friends...hope our friendship will last long....sry....anyway " Faith know no disappointment"..trust me=)

Anyway...welcome to my blog...hope u really enjoy it from ur deepest hear..tks for visiting it...leave some comment so tat i cn improve much more better....hope u visit it more often....HapPY 'tIGER' yEAR..... love my family n friends.....